there is a nurse who became a very close friend. she came to the ER the night i wound up there. i trust and admire her. but finances and the need to care for her grown daughter drew her away from us. then i heard that her hodgins lymphoma had returned. she has not responded to our voicemail or email. but maybe she still reads this blog. all i want is to know that you're okay. i'll not blog for a bit, so this stays on top.